I am learning that on top of all my other kinks. I am with out a question of a doubt an emotional masochists. Very much wanting to be a cuckquean: meaning I must accept the fact that my master can fuck whoever he wants, whenever he wants, with or without telling me.To know that he may choose to point out ways she is better or may choose to tell me nothing at all. I know that his pleasure comes first and their is no way I could fully pleasure him just myself. That he deserves variety and it is his right to do so. I find this to be a wild turn on to know other women are enjoying his cock/tongue while he is enjoying them all the same.Trust me it is an emotional roller coaster at times. There are days when I sit and wonder what the hell am I thinking or what the fuck am I doing? I suppose this is what being an emotion masochist is, it is not real unless there is hurt and discomfort to go along with it. This is what causes the split of emotions, jealous insecurities and extreme arousal all at the same time. My mind is helplessly wrapped up in this twisted little lifestyle and desires. I just can’t seem to escaped.Please click HERE to read rest of post at Masochistic Desires.